Pace
Back
in late 2006 I had reached my bottom.
I had lost another job because of my drug use, I was homeless, and
running out of money. How many times had I done this before? I felt
utterly hopeless. Only 23 years old at the time, most would say still a
little wet behind the ears. I was a failure at everything it seemed
except abusing dope and myself in the process. I attempted college once
but never made it to class. I was unable to hold a job for more than a
few months. So that one fall day in 2006, my boss came into the
bathroom during break and found me under the influence of Captain
Morgan and snorting lines of cocaine off of a toilet top. Pretty
disgusting I know.
So there I was
once again at a crossroads. Was I to repeat the cycle once again: back
to jail, struggle to find another job, more dope, more tears, further
isolation?? I took what little I had left and chose Option B—there has
got to be a better way...
At Solutions
of North Texas I found out just how truly twisted I was mentally. I
leveled my pride and after some thorough soul-searching I realized how
truly sick all of my ideas, emotions, and attitudes were. A spiritual
tool kit, if you will, was provided to me at SONTX. If I were to ever
fully recover I must find a whole new outlook on life. I found it!! I
implemented the tools given to me!! What I have today is, ‘a daily
reprieve contingent on the maintenance of my spiritual condition.’ I
have found my purpose in life. Daily, I share my story
of recovery with
others struggling with addiction. I am now managing a men’s homeless
shelter in Amarillo. Although, in the next few months you’ll see a
new
sober living home in Amarillo similar to Solutions of
North Texas. I am
founding a refuge for those suffering the horrors of addiction, where a
path to lasting sobriety will be simply laid out for all willing to
take the journey.
I love to
share my testimony with others personally, listen to their stories, and
offer what I have learned along the way. If you’re in the Amarillo area
contact me at 806-282-3784 or email me at pacelawson@hotmail.com
Pace Lawson
