Jeremy

For years I have tried using and drinking both on my own and with the help of medical professionals, nothing worked. It got to the point where I no longer wanted to live, not like that. When I woke up in the hospital after a failed suicide attempt I felt defeated and hopeless. It seemed to me, at that time, that this was just the way it was going to be. I had always been able to do whatever I set my mind to with this one miserable exception. I didn’t understand why that was.

I had been to AA and thought that didn’t work either. I never fully grasped the 12 steps thinking that it was all about going to meetings and getting a sponsor. More importantly I had never fully understood what it meant to be powerless and unable to manage that decision to not pick up the first one.

When I decided to give it one more shot I had a real good understanding that I could not do this on my own and that I was in a lot of trouble. I vaguely remember those last few days scared, angry, ashamed, wondering if I would ever be happy. I walked away from my so-called life in Dallas hoping against hope that Solutions of North Texas was different. At first I thought it was just another sober house and I had been to a few of those in the past, which was really what I knew. Once I got into the house I saw that things were different and so was I. Being sober was not enough, I wanted to be happy and never have to drink or use again. They told me I had to work a 12 step program with a sponsor and start living my life on some simple spiritual principles.

They asked me to stop trying to run my life and let something greater than all of us do that for me. They allowed me to learn peace and happiness. SONTX gave me a place to practice these principles while still living life. They gave me hope. The 12 steps is about change and within Solutions of North Texas I was able to make that change with the guidance of a higher power and a level of accountability I had never been held to.

Jeremy